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'' stop hoping for something and never expect from anything ''

I disagree with the statement 100%. We can always hope for something and expect from anything but keep it real and realistic.

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you always know what to do,
you always know what to say,
you always know,
how to take my heart away,
it is not as it seems,
the cliche' lines,
 and the scenes,
everything I did is effecting me,
what should I do?
what should I be?
tell me what's what,
and what is reality?
I'm trapped and far,
somewhere so dark,
a huge distance right from where you are.
it is time to leave,
it is time to go,
I killed myself.
Not just me but all myself that I thought I know.

or knew

December

You don't know how much I love December. It's the month of Christmas!! Woohoo!  *slapsmythigh* just kiddin'. I don't celebrate Christmas because I'm a Muslim.

December is the month where my crush,Junsu was born. Yep. Above all,December is also the month where I was born! Yeay! Pretty sad I couldn't celebrate my birthday with my best friends *wipe tears*. But it's okay. I have my family. I have my mom,my dad and my sisters. They are the backbone of where I am right now. Not saying that I'm a successful person. Just stating that I'm glad they're still by my side,facing all of my shitty attitudes,bearing all my mistreats towards them. Not pointing fingers to any of you.What? What am I saying? I don't even know. Ignore me,midgets! Muahah!  

December. I think it would be a hectic month for me as I was busy with tuition classes,holidays (yay!) with my family and all kind of stuff. You name it. Haha. The tuition had started yesterday. I wasn't pretty bad as I thought it would be. The experienced teachers there are kinda cool which make all the students interested to be there longer. Dang it. I suck in giving explanations. 

Well,that's all for today. I gotta go to tuition class at 11 a.m.

Have a great day,everyone!

Peace be upon you. 

here,listen. I mean, READ

I've been thinking about blogging again (I have a few blogs in the past) since the past few months. I think its fun to type and blab here even though I know that people will not notice the existence of my blog haha! Anyway,let's hope that I'll keep my blog updated (even though some of you don't want to. Just do it!) Alright? Haha. Bye guys. It's really fun communicating with you through blog. Hold on a sec. What's that one word that we usually use to describe something that's...overwhelming?  Mainstream? Is that true? What? No. I don't know. What? Yeah. God.

What I've been wanting to say

*this picture has nothing to do with the post ok*

So recently I've been scrolling my twitter timeline to see what's 'hot' or hot gossips being shared on twitter. But I see nothing. All I see is people complaining about how ugly they look,how shitty their life is,how idiot they look when they talk and some of them use twitter as a medium to release their tension by tweeting cursive,mean and harsh words. Which is slightly inappropriate to be read. 

'pegi mampos'

'you asshole you don't deserve to live'

to the person who tweeted those kind of stuff,did you know that someone might get offended? have you ever wondered about the feelings that will be hurt? have you ever considered the fact that the 'asshole' you tweeted about,has been through a lot of disappointing moments in her life? And then all of a sudden,she changed. She came back a completely different person. With a new mindset,a new outlook,a new soul. A girl that once cared way too much,about everyone and everything,no longer cared at all. So,before it gets worse,stop. Seriously. I can't stop you. Only you can stop yourself. 

Current Addiction

October is finally here,guys. I'm saaaa happy for no reasons. I have to bear another month of school then I'll be free. I'm spending the remnants of this school holidays by watching videos,watching videos and watching videos. No books. Not studying. Mhm.. good. Clever Naj. Here I want to introduce you to some of my favourite youtubers.

1. Firstly,Pewdiepie ((Felix Kjellberg)). He never fails to make me laugh. I laugh in tears watching his videos. (('laugh in tears')) balik rumah bukak dictionary kenapa bahasa aku pelik semacam. 

ISN'T HE BEAUTIFUL?

YOU LOOK SOOOOO FINE PEWDS. That's why I choose to be a bro. *brofist*

2. Joe Sugg (search Thatcherjoe). He is really attractive and incredible in singing which make me fall for him even more! His sister,Zoella is a youtuber too!! You guys have have have to check him out on youtube and give me a feedback about him! 

    no he's not a singer. sorry I couldn't choose a proper photo of him cuz I sucks in almost everything.

3. HERE'S TO THE ONE WHO STOLE MY HEART SINCE 2012,CASPAR LEE ((his name has haunted him the entire life)) Idk why he is named Caspar but I think it's cute. Bslcamsokjdnaijr. Caspar is friggin funny. Maan,I couldn't describe him properly so I'll just show you some photos of him.

you can tell he's funny just by looking at this picture,ain't? HAHAH! 

So,will you check them out on youtube?

It's your choice. 

Have a happy day,reader (s)!

talks about future...meh

I want to be rich

In order to be rich,I have to work hard

10 facts about me

Decided to write my '10 Facts about Me' on my blog because it seems much more easier than posting it on instagram because some of you don't really wanna know me hahah.

1) I was born on December 9th in 1998 which makes me a Sagittarius!

2) I don't like sleeping in the dark. Alone. Don't turn off the lights unless you like the pain of being knocked down. 

3) I have flaws. Promise. 

4) I'm not good at sports. I don't run track. My movements are tremendously slow. I remembered the moment where I was listed for finals in 400m. I was scared as shit I couldn't focus in class the entire week before the competition started. And when the day came,I cried a river. I was never this scared before plus the competitors were...athletes? I was the only friggin 'un'athlete which makes me even more scared. But then I thought,should I run with my eyes closed or pretended that I sprinted my legs? NAH. The only thing which is needed at that moment is self confidence. POOH! And guess what? I came as the 4th place woohooo (2nd last okay. It wasn't bad after all).

5) I like musics. My current favorite songs are Sky Full of Stars,The Scientist and Ink by Coldplay. (All Time Low isn't bad too!)

6) I never been in any serious relationship before. Psst,I had a crush on someone :p and it's for me to know and for you to find out. 

7) I have changed my spectacles for a total of 7 times in just three years! Hahah u kno y? One of them fell into the lubang jamban ((english dia aku tatau)) when I was staying in the hostel. I was so frustrated I flushed the toilet instead of taking out my specs from 'the hole of fragrant'. The second one was because of my sister. She accidentally stepped on my specs. I didn't put on my specs at the moment. I put it aside because my eyeballs were itchy. As a result,the specs were broken into two which makes me infuriated the whole week suffering of sore eyes. The third until the sixth I couldn't remember what happened to them. Sadz. Sobs. *a moment of silence please* The seventh was it was my own decision to change my specs because I got money and...I guess I don't know what to do with it? Fools.  

8) I couldn't survive a day without eating fruits (I'm telling the truth).

9) I have great friends! But I don't know how to entertain them. 

10) If you like me,let me know. I don't bite. 

      ('if' la kan) saja menggedik.

11) I like like like like like cats. I had a pet cat before named after my late grandmas' cat, Manis. 

     He died on 17th April (the day of Carnival Relay) which made me suffered (does that word exist?        idc) of fever for a few days. Sigh. Missing my late cat. 

12) And yes I know it has reached 12. You can't tell me what to do,mayn! 

So those are some silly facts about me. Bye! 

1,2,3

Lately,I've been thinking about my future.
How will it look like?
Will it be as much and as good as I planned it to be?

My life is just one big sigh.
I don't even know how to draw my life.

If I were given a special chance to 'meet' and 'visit' my future life,I won't do it. Not in a million years.
I like surprises.
Sometimes.

Satisfying

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you